A new hope
I’ve been saying some thank you’s tonight, I wasn’t going to write the blog but then all of a sudden my head started filling up with stuff and so here we go. It’s Friday evening 3rd December and tonight a new chapter in my story is being written. Inside of me are 4 little round tablets. They are the first of many. These tablets are keeping me alive , 4 little round tablets that’s all and I’ve got so much to be grateful for to these tablets.
Tonight Ive started a new therapy , these 4 little tablets contain a hormone and my hopes rest with these little tablets. They will hopefully keep me alive untill my body rejects them. I’m hoping that my body becomes their best friends and they stay that way for a long long time.
It’s crazy to think that these tablets can do so much, but in my opinion they will only work on two conditions.
1) I have to have complete belief in them
2) The universe says yes they will work.
Yesterday I sat in the chemotherapy treatment ward for an hour collecting my tablets whilst the nurses did some stuff with me. I was amazed at the sense of calm I felt in that room as the patients were hooked up to the drugs that were going to save their lives .
Most of the patients were either reading books or phones.
The atmosphere surprised me it was not grim as I expected it to be. Most of you reading this will never see or experience it, but sadly enevitably some of you will. My message is don’t be afraid it’s nothing like it used to be , the nurses have just got it right and it’s something not to be feared. I know that chemo is my next option should the drugs stop working., I’m glad I’ve been in that department now and it’s nothing to be feared.🙏
The Christmas movie
I’ve been watching a lot of Christmas movies , not the ones that are famous but more the romantic lovey dovey ones, you know the whisper it quietly the Hallmark channel ones
I’ve worked out that most of them are the same movie just with different actors.
Lonely smiles a lot middle-aged pretty lady who has just become single moves to quaint snow covered Chritmas card type town. Meets local handyman a very handsome chap who also has the most amazing smile .
The town of course is full of pretty middle aged women all intent on helping the two get together. There’s usually a cute extremely clever child involved or an equally cute and clever dog, an old portly man with a red face who wears check shirts who could in fact be Santa and lots of lights, oh and a tree which the couple decorate is a must. A coffee shop is essential which bakes delicious cookies run by the local slightly above middle aged but still very petty town matchmaker. There’s the obligatory Christmas tree lighting ceremony where of course it snows a The whole plot is stirred up and ends with the lonely pretty middle-aged lady and the handsome handyman chap with flashing white teeth getting together after just deciding to dramatically go separate ways . Quite possibly the lonely middle-aged pretty ladys ex arrives on the scene for one last try , of course she explains it’s too late as she smiles sweetly and although she loves him dearly has moved on and has found her true love with the smiley handyman.❤️Me then sitting in bed with tears rolling down my face in happiness at the couple’s beautiful get together.
What am I like. These movies do it all the time to me. My emotions have always been impossible to hide, I mean who cries in a cinema watching tangled , hands up yep I’ll own up to that one. My sister still ribs me for crying at ET the extra terrestrial. Well you’ve got a heart made of stone not to cry at that one havnt you. ❤️
Don’t get stressed
It’s now the weekend, I wish everyone a great weekend, don’t sweat the small stuff, if you feel under pressure because Christmas is coming up, stop and think for a moment of people like me, we would give anything for Christmas and future Christmases , your stressing about something that is wonderful , it should be about the family not the food , the children not the presents. . Did you know that Christmas is one of the most stressful times of the year, how can that be? Don’t worry, things will go wrong , things will not be controllable , so what , don’t try to control them. Keep a feeling of gratitude in your heart that you and loved ones are well and enjoy it, keep being kind to people and you will enjoy it more. ❤️
This is my next challenge in January this time I’m raising money for prostate cancer.
https://runthemonthme.prostatecanceruk.org/fundraising/keith-woodwards-run-the-month-challenge-for-p
