Weekend reflections

Coming to the end of another weekend and my reflections are going to be short today.

I’ve not got out and walked this weekend I promise I will tomorrow in fact I’m making that a definite, I’m going to drive to the local lakes and this time I’m going to walk around the big one. If you can recall the last time I was at the lakes my body was having none of it, we will see what it says tomorrow.

I’ve learnt to listen to my body, my MRI scan has reconfirmed there is a piece of my spine that is grating up against the nerve and it looks like at some point in the future surgery will be required, in fact a doctor from kings in London is calling me tomorrow to discuss options.

This could be life changing news, and something that is both scary and welcome.

I didn’t get out for a walk but I managed a sit in the garden for an hour yesterday. Mr Robin never made an appearance on this occasion. The tea was fantastic, green tea with summer fruits. I’m really becoming the coneseur of flavoured teas. Our two indoor rabbits decided to make a rare excursion into the garden, I had cleaned out their cage left the door open and out Willow and Bertie Binks went.

They used to be out the garden all of the time but for some reason they have stayed indoors lately , they like to just lay under the kitchen table next to the wall.

To watch them outside is a lovely thing to see as they leap about in pure joy as if not a care in the world, no matter how bad you might be feeling, watching these two flying around the garden in short bursts of lightening speed is just fantastic. There is just one problem Berty is a devil to get back in again. I’m sure he plays me for a fool, chasing him around the table he goes one way, I try and cut him off he turns on a sixpence and shoots back the other way.

It’s a game and I lose everytime but at least it makes up for a bit of lost exercise. Finally he goes inside. He hops past me a gives me a look that says better luck next time sucker. It’s worth the chase to get him back in, it used to annoy me but now I find it hilarious, I mean how can you be angry about being outsmarted by a rabbit.😄🐰🐇

Ella my eldest is away at cadet camp, so my wife and my youngest daughter little Nieve are going to watch a movie. I always call her little Nieve, she’s like a little doll. Actually she’s a strong minded girl and not many people get the better over her, she is amazing and I love her with all my heart, just as I do Ella. I’m so lucky to have been blessed with two unique and fantastic children.

The film we chose is a new marvel film

The cancer has turned the volume up a bit in my back or at least something in my back has started to shout out. I’ve had a few painful moments this weekend, ones that really make you freeze in motion for fear of braking something in your body. The neverending thought that all cancer sufferers must have, is it getting worse. That fear only leaves you when you distract yourself from it, you have to find something else to occupy the mind and make the fear go away but my god it’s not easy.

I find when I’m alone and the thinking starts my phone is a great distraction, I write my blog from my phone, I’ve found a few apps that can help to distract me from my thoughts, one of them is duo lingo where im learning Italian, I used to be quite good years ago but it went rusty so this is a great distraction to be learning something. I would recommend anyone that needs their mind to be distracted for a while to immerse yourself into some form of learning.

It’s Sunday evening, the wind is howling and my back is joining in. I have a really sharp pain at the bottom of my spine which is making it difficult to sleep. The wind is adding to the chaos in my head right now. Writing the blog is a great way to create a distraction.

This week is another busy week in terms of hospital stuff. Thursday I get to say hello to my old friend the bone scanner he’s going to take some pictures of my bones to see if there is any change in the situation I’m pretty certain it will be a change for the better. Friday is a visit to my old pal the CT machine which will also be taking some pictures of me and they will all be good, I have this feeling and I’m going to keep saying that, in fact every single morning night and various times in the day I say this mantra.

Every day in every way I’m getting better and better

Every day in every way I’m getting stronger and stronger

Every day in every way my cancer is getting weaker and weaker.

I say this out loud over and over again, I’m telling my conscious mind and my conscious mind will act on what I tell it.

I have to believe what I’m saying and I really do. The power from telling yourself something is immense.

Can you heal yourself , yes you can but only if you really 100% believe in what you are telling yourself. I do and always will.

Untill the next time

Take care

Woody ❤️

I almost forgot

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Last walk this morning for Prostate cancer uk for January

I was diagnosed with advanced prostate cancer last sept this means it has gone from my prostate into my bones. I’ve got 2 fractures in my spine caused by the cancer which cause me sciatic pain, a lot to deal with.

I’m raising money by walking for prostate UK to find cures to this rapidly expanding disease. Now 1 in 8 of us blokes will get it, it’s even worse for black blokes 1 in 4.

If this is caught early it can be stopped and controlled.

These are typical symptoms

Getting up more often on the night to go for a wee

Difficulty passing wee

Sudden pains in the lower back area

This can affect any man from early 50s onwards

You can get a simple blood test from your doctor it’s called a PSA test and tests for prostate cancer antigens in your blood stream.

Don’t leave it untill it’s too late

As it’s my last walk this morning please see my link below and kindly give a donation to Prostate cancer UK

Thank you to all of those who already have ❤️

Keith Woodward’s run the month challenge for prostate cancer – https://runthemonthme.prostatecanceruk.org/fundraising/keith-woodwards-run-the-month-challenge-for-p