Radio therapy ain't so bad.
Today was to be my first day of radio therapy or zapping as I call it. I had already been introduced to the machine, and said hello. I knew that this machine was going to give me hope to help with the the two tumours in my spine, so why would I not like it or even love it. ❤️
The morning began like most , tea and blood pressure and a taking of a couple of tubes of blood, what are they doing with all my blood🦇
My continued affection for a cup of tea is growing, where has tea been all my life.🤔
Meds and toast is next, I’m always aware of saying thanks to the meds before taking them, I’m on a quite a few, steroids pregabalin morphine, they all get the thanks for helping me.👏
Ive also had hormone injections , so keeping an eye out for moobs and long hair to start develop😀
Off to be zapped⚡
I need to mention someone here because she gave me a lot of inspiration today, I won’t say her name, but she’s another walking talking angel of that I have no doubt.😇
My nurse today was L who accompanied me for treatment and then told me her story.
She was in a bad way a good few years back, with cancer and has had to over come a hell of a lot, but overcome it she most certainly has.⚕️
We cried and laughed together about stuff and you know what there really is nothing so strong as the human spirit, it’s unbreakable. 🤗
She got through it with the help of a French Bulldog puppy who chose her, which is another story.
Louis 🐾 was her purpose 🐕
You can get through any thing once you have a purpose. We need an aim a goal or something. I have the love of my family, my kids are far too young to not have a daddy and my purpose is to see that that doesn’t happen. 🙏
I absolutely treasure in my heart the time spent with this angel today and I’m so honoured that she opened up to me.❤️
I’ve already said my experience through this adventure of cancer will be a positive one, this is just one of the outcomes a kind word or two can bring.
Anyone struggling right now and I mean with anything, find a purpose no matter how big or small one step at a time and you will be lifted along this stream of positivity.❤️
Let the zapping begin
I was wheeled on a bed to meet the machine again but this time lazers charged and ready to go.
The experience was very calm and easy, for anyone about to go through this, it really was not difficult painful or frightening I promise.
In fact no sooner than I laid down it seemed it was over. People reading this need to know you can build up all kinds of horror stories of what it might be like but the truth is your just laying on a bed for about 5 minutes and you don’t feel a thing. The doctors were fantastic and in fact everyone connected to the experience was fantastic.
Whilst the machine was zapping away I just imagined all the healing power that it was giving me, this thing was literally saving my life, don’t be afraid of it embrace it.
The universe works in mysterious ways although this is a machine it was built and thought up by humans.
Later that night…
It’s 2am Sleep won’t come so easy tonight and I’ve found it a bit of a struggle perhaps because of all the nodding off in the day time, caused by the radio therapy, the side affect is you just fall asleep in the middle of stuff.
Just a few thoughts I’m having right now which I l want share but may delete after.
Although….
I’m in no pain.
I’m not even thinking of the past or the future.
I’m in the NOW and it’s a beautiful place to be.
My head is full of so much stuff most of it is NOT bad or sad, but instead of enlightening potential, wow.
The present moment is the only moment you can actually control.
The present moment is the point where you as the captain of your ship can control the journey.
Nothing can hurt you in the present moment in your mind if you chose not, free will has an unbendable and unbreakable spirit if you chose that path.
If I chose fear I will experience the thought of fear, nothing more and nothing less, just the thought, thoughts can’t hurt me.
Fear confidence anxiousness love hate gratitude are just examples of thought, I have free will to chose and I chose the most powerful trinity of thoughts there can be ever be.
Love
Kindness
Gratitude.
This is my armour, it’s bullet proof.
One day I may even say thank you to this cancer for changing my life.
Anyone reading this and struggling right now with absolutely anything, listen to me, you CAN beat it, no matter what.❤️
