Not everyday is good but that's ok.
Today was not the best day, but that’s ok.
Some real bad pains hitting me on and off today, the cancer is not being kind. The meds have done a good job masking the pain, it might not even be there, I’m pretty sure it is though.
How do you know if the pain exists if your on so many drugs, I’ll ponder that one for a while ????
Ive been doing a pain meditation and something I’ve noticed that’s very true is when we are in pain we tend to focus all of our attention on the part of the body that has pain, this of course means we ignore the rest of the body and so the pain gets worse the more attention that we give it.
It’s interesting that when I focus on the good parts of my body which is about 90% of it, the pain dulls down.
Don’t ignore the good bits and just focus on the bad bits , that’s s great metaphor for life, I think too.💚
Today I’m starting to make a bit of a breakthrough in my learning the guitar🎸 I find I’m not blessed with big hands or long fingers so some of the chords are really difficult, but it’s fun and it takes my mind off the other stuff.
I’ve found as I’m alone all day I do a lot of talking to myself out loud. Well there is no one there to have a conversation with so why not have a chat with oneself in these times. I have even had an argument with me, I still lost😄 I’ve never been one to have many arguments so I’m out of practice so I won’t win.🤣
I’ve been watching some YouTube videos about people who went into remission. I learnt something called NLP a few years ago, the whole thing about NLP was based on a model of excellence, so to find people who are successful in their particular field of expertise and then find out why they were so good at something and then copy it or something like that. I’ve been watching videos of people who have gone into remission and it’s clear that most of these people are very spiritual and mindful , they seem to be very grounded and had a zest for life. People who give up don’t tend to make it in the 2nd chance game of life, that’s for sure.
I am doing all I can to remain positive kind and grateful, it’s not so easy to be kind when you are at home on your own, so hopefully the blog will be a help to someone as a kindness.
Gratitude is still strong in this one, I’m grateful that I’ve got a team of people in the NHS doing what they can, I’m going to be busy in the next few weeks with various appointments,
I’m grateful for just being alive and living in this beautiful world.
Yes, there is a lot of shit stuf going on outside but that’s always news isnt it? You don’t get to see the good stuff unless you search for it. It’s out there I promise, I see it everyday.
Positivity is just a state of mind it’s my next thought, if I stop for a second, I can listen to my thoughts, I can notice them sliding towards the dark side, I can chose then to change that, I can chose to think something positive and I become positive. 👌💯
Most of us don’t notice our thoughts we just go with the feeling they give us. Positive feelings can’t come from negative thoughts, they just can’t, so if I or you reading this have a feeling of being down or just not feeling great, then that’s what your thinking is doing to you, it’s not the outside world it’s your inside world that creates your reality.
Going through this situation with this illness, makes me now understand 100 💯 that my thinking controls my reality.
Today I’ve got a little trip to the doctor’s for more blood taking and as a gift in return I’m going to give them some of my freshly decanted wee.😄
I’m going to do a short walk today to keep up my Samaritans challenge but I’m aware the first few days I was a bit too hasty to get as much done as possible.
It’s like the tortoise and the hare race, slowly slowly wins the race. 
Well everyone have a great day won’t you, just remember stay positive, no matter what the situation, be kind, and just be grateful you are alive, no matter how your circumstances might be right now, it won’t last forever that’s for sure. ❤️
