scanxiety

Not quite autumn but the signs that the long hot summer is passing by ( style council one of my all time favourite tunes). It’s been an amazing summer down here on the Costa Medway endless warmth and blue skies. It’s been so hot that the leaves have started their normal autumn undressing much earlier this year. Went for a nice walk yesterday and was surprised to feel the crispy crunch of the fallen leaves underfoot.

Next week I have a consultation with my oncologist, it’s nail biting time or at least should be. I’ve settled into a state of mind that what will be will be. I’m awaiting results from MRI bone and CT scans. Scaniety they name it and it’s a good name. I suppose the key thing is that worrying about something I have absolutely no control over seems pointless when you look at it. The scan won’t change with me worrying about it so I chose to do my best to put it to the back of my mind although I can feel it knocking at the door I’m just going to pretend I’m not in and hope it goes away😀

The time is 2.20am and I’m in the wide awake club. Feel like I’ve drunk ten cups of coffee and yet I’ve had none. Every now and then I get one of these nights where I wake around this time and can’t go back to sleep again. The room is hot and still, the summer heat is still inside the house. As I type this I can only hear the echoes of my thoughts. No cars no noise just thoughts. I’m not thinking anything bad, it’s all ok. I’ve had a really good day to day which ended with a family game of Monopoly, my youngest daughter Nieve took the game and bankrupted us all in 2 hours😀 I loved just sitting around the table with my girls ❤️ Usually these games are reserved for Christmas which is just 118 days away. Last Christmas I was terrified I wouldn’t see another one, I’m pretty confident now that I’ll get to see this one, how many others is down to the universe, I feel.its got my back at least for now🙏

I’ve got a holiday coming up soon, we are all off to the Elvedon Forrest to the Center Parcs, I’m looking forward to this holiday like no other. I’m not sure why but I feel a bit like an excited child. Due to my stage of cancer I found it very difficult to find anyone who would insure me to travel abroad. In a way that’s ok. I would hate to suddenly fall ill whilst overseas with my wife and kids, the pressure on them would be awful. I’ll settle for England for now untill.ive kicked this disease and then I’ll get on a plane somewhere amazing.

People talk of bucket lists, I’ve never really thought of the need for one but then I read a blog somebody wrote who was terminally ill and it inspired me to start composing my own. I still refuse I’m terminally ill, but a bucket list seems like a fun idea any way.

I’m going to just add one to each blog and see where we go. I’m an avid weather lover, you might have got the notion whilst reading my stuff so I suppose one of my bucket list ideas has to be to do with the weather. I love the power of nature, it’s always left me in awe so I guess there is no greater force of nature than a tornado. So that’s my first entry on my bucket list is to chase a tornado. I’ve watched lots of YouTube stuff about crazy guys stalking mother nature’s most fearsome beast and I would absolutely love the chance to join in the hunt for a tornado. As we don’t get too many of them here in Kent I’m guessing a trip to America would be the only way to realistically have a chance. I believe they call it tornado alley. Tornado alley is typically identified as including parts of Texas, Oklahoma, Kansas, Nebraska, South Dakota, Indiana, Missouri, Iowa, Illinois, and Ohio. These states, along with the state of Florida, are some of the parts of the US that are most prone to tornadoes, but tornadoes have been recorded in all 50 states. Had to look that up😀

I can only imagine the sheer thrill of seeing one of nature’s most fearsome and destructive elements in close range. Yes that’s no 1 on my bucket list, will I do it? Who knows but you have to dream.”If you can visualize it, if you can dream it, there’s some way to do it.” Walt Disney. He didn’t do too bad for himself by dreaming something did he!

Thanks as usual for reading I think the week gone by has been a good week overall I’ve just embarked on a new challenge during which I’ll walk 11000 steps each and everyday to raise awareness and funds for prostate cancer UK. 11000 is the number of blokes that die from prostate cancer sadly each year so I’m doing my best to make sure more people know about this illness that affects so many men.

Quick update I’m already done two days I’ve got up extra early to get to work and walk for an hour and a half to get most of the steps done. Ill talk a bit more about the walk in my next blog.

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https://marchthemonth.prostatecanceruk.org/fundraising/woodys-march-the-month-for-prostate-cancer-uk

Thanks as always for reading

Woody ❤️