Late night ponderings
It’s 1.15 am and I’m wide awake, been laying here for several hours with a mind full of stuff most of it pleasent. So here are some late night thoughts that are just slowly and serenely floating about in my head. They are nice thoughts but just persistent in the way they are eager to jump out of my head and straight onto my keyboard, so here goes
I’ve always been banging the big base drum for kindness and how important it is to be kind no matter what the situation is you find yourself in. kindness strikes a note of pure joy when it’s done to you and I have been lucky and blessed to receive kindness from people in their words and actions. Take for instance the kindness of someone who out of the blue at the beginning of the year arranged a box of fresh vegetables to be delivered to my house each week since Christmas and just this weekend I received a gift from an old friend and colleague from the ambulance service of a box of goodies, it was like Christmas all over again. When kindness is being done to you like that, you know that someone is thinking about you, it warm the very cockles of your heart and makes the internal sun shine for you
I won’t name these two wonderful people , but I know they read this, so thank you so very much for your pure kindness. just the mere thought of doing something like that for me has an enormous effect. I’ve always said kindness is like throwing a small stone into a silent still pond and watching the ripples as they spread from the centre out. Each ripple has an effect on the pond. Each act of kindness has an effect on the world too. I believe we all are connected in some weird and mysterious way and each act of kindness has a powerful affect on both the giver and receiver.
Go and perform a random act of kindness
If you are reading this I want you to go and do something that will change the world. Just go out and make it your purpose today to perform an act of kindness on someone. It doesn’t have to be big just some thing that will make a difference to someone. You hold a magnificent power within each and everyone of you and that is the gift of being kind. This is one of the most powerful gifts you have, the world turns on kindness it’s what powers the very nature of our existence on this incredible planet. Can you imagine if 50% of the population of the world went out and deliberately did an act of kindness at the same time. The effect would send ripples around the galaxies and universes, the earth would change. There would be a smile on the planet that could be seen from the far reaches of time and space and that wave would alter everything there is.
Short walk
Took a nice walk today just around the estate, clocked up 3 km wanted to do more but the wind just exhausted me. The birds were silent on my walk today it was if they had all flown a away or maybe they had been blown away by Eunice and frederick. The estate was quiet too, most people were tucked away indoors. The trees were being tossed around by the wind, a dance of fear or love. I wonder if the trees fear the wind or do they enjoy it, there is not much that affects trees apart from humans and strong winds. I could almost imagine the trees turning away from the wind before it hit them with those powerful punches, the leaves mostly departed the new ones just waiting for their turn to appear in spring. I never see leaves grow they just suddenly appear when mother nature call them to. Spring is not far away, I love all the seasons and always have but since getting cancer I will now connect the spring with new beginnings, time to shine and blossom into the world. My cancer will hear me talking about spring, I no longer talk to it like it’s my enemy, it’s a part of me and I will treat it with kindness and talk to it like a companion, it’s not my friend it’s just a companion on a journey that we are sharing together, I will say goodby to it when it’s time and our paths go different ways.
One of the other joys about spring is the days gradually lose that icy feeling, the wind changes direction and pleasent warm days start to appear. The days where the t shirt is replacing the bright blue getting old now jackets of the world. Spring excites me, I see it as a time of hope. The days enjoy the spring so much that they gradually hang out longer as if not wanting darkness to fall. The trees of course dress up for the occasion, their bright buds blooming into bloosoms and petals that dance like snow in the breeze.
Back to work soon
Next week I go back to work full time, this is thanks to the amazing NHS who have now got my vast concoction of meducation’s all singing off the same hymm sheet. All my medications are co existing nicely now, its like we have all shook hands and become friends with each other. My pain levels are now at a manageable level, it’s more discomfort than pain. As my latest scans showed my cancer has slowed down, I guess I must say thank you to it for giving me a chance to resume an almost normal living status. Of course I’ve changed a lot in how I live, I feed my body good stuff both physically and spiritually. The only abnormalities are the meds and the fact that I know I’ve got cancer and any slight new pain that decides to pop up and say hi is going to be met with more worry and fear.
I’ve learnt much better now to control my fear, I understand perfectly that my fear is just an echo of what I’m thinking, if I’m thinking fearfull thoughts then I’m going to experience fear. “I think therefore I am” thanks Rene Descartes for that piece of wisdom, if he was about today I would shake his hand, after I had doffed my cap of course and say Rene you are so right. We do think therefore we are. If fear is in my thoughts then I feel fear. I could of course say that if confidence is in my thoughts then I feel confident.
I love the philosophy of life , I studied for years before this blip in my life came along about the philosophy of human nature. In other words how we work and tick. Having cancer has schooled me even further into how we work and how our thoughts play such a huge part in our experience of life. Next time you are feeling depressed or negative in someway explore your thoughts and you will find why you are feeling that way, you can change your thoughts to feel another way.
I’m so looking forward to meeting my new students, it will be my first ambulance course for 5 months, that’s crazy, how can 5 months have gone so fast. A lot of it has been a blur of emotions, dancing around my mind. Days of being in pain and not knowing where all of this is going to or what future lies ahead of me. One thing for sure I will enjoy work like it’s gift, to me it’s a gift to be doing a job I love is surely a gift. How will my back hold up to those long hours in the ambulance, well there’s only one way to find out and that’s to go for it. Life is too short to hold back, if you want to do something take my advice and just go for it, take the plunge into those beautiful waters of destiny, if it’s meant to be then it’s meant to be. The last thing I want written on my tombstone is here lies Woody he lived a good life but he just wished he had …….
Good night
Sleep peacefully
Love Woody ❤️
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