Some very good news

Today is one of those days that I guess will come around every now and then. I’ve got an oncologist appointment this afternoon and this is where we will discuss the results of the MRI, Bone and CT scans all of which took place in the past few weeks. It’s exciting terrifying and incredibly wonderful all rolled up into an emotional tango. Why is it incredibly wonderful you might ask, that’s a strange way of looking at it. For me just having these incredible machines with all their wizardry to be able to see into my body and into my bones is something to appreciate the wonder of modern medicine. I’m extremely lucky to have been born into an era where this is all available. I say thanks to the machines and the people that continue to develop them. 🙏 I wonder if me saying thanks to the machines after the scans has an affect. Can the power of intention be that great. Yes it can, if you believe it can.

Terrifying

Of course today is terrifying, who knows what this cancer is doing to me on the inside. Is it eating me alive as I speak, are those cells aggressively weakening me without my awareness. Or are my T cells organising themselves into an formidable army of unstoppable power taking the cancer cells on in an almighty unseen battlefield that’s going on inside of me. What is the doctor going to say.I have to remain positive and believe that my body the meds and of course my steadfast belief in the unknown and the unexplainable are all banging the drum of hope for me today. This is the problem with disease, many do their stuff in the shadows, hidden from our eyes and often from our feeling, if we don’t feel something is wrong we don’t expect anything to be wrong. My cancer is like a dormant volcano, for the moment it feels like it’s just sleeping, I want it to stay that way and not to suddenly erupt. In fact I want it to become extinct not just dormant. Although these are my own thoughts and feelings I expect most cancer patients have these fears too.

Exciting

It’s exciting, the anticipation is overwhelming, Im doing my best to distract myself, in a funny kind of way sharing my thoughts is a kind of therapy. I’m emptying my mind, I feel a bit like a child on Christmas Eve anticipating good things. I just have a feeling thats been growing bigger and bigger, it’s a feeling of everything is going to be ok. It’s hard to explain a feeling like this, it’s almost like I’ve had a dream and the dream has come true. I remember in my childhood dreaming about my grandfather the night he passed away, my mum came into my room in the morning to tell me the sad news, I already knew he had gone, we were very close. The brain is a remarkable organ, it’s incredible at sensing danger, who can explain why or how our intuition stops us often from coming to harm but also we have our hearts, not so many people understand the power of the heart. It brings me to thinking about an experiment I read about involving the hearts role in sensing danger . I’ll explain briefly and then see if I can find a link to it.

The heart experiment

An organisation called heartmath set up an experiment where groups of volunteers were asked to watch a series of random images on a computer. They were connected to monitors to test the change in their heart rhythm as each image was shown. The images were a mixture, randomly displaying good and bad images. Eg the good Images were nice things like cuddly pets, the bad images were nasty things like war and nasty accidents etc. The researchers watched for the change in the heart signals as each image came up. What was remarkable is after a while the researchers noticed the heart signals were changing before the image was appearing during the short gap between the images. The heart was predicting the type of image before the person had even seen it. Our bodies are amazing things , if our heart can predict the event before it happened what else can it do.

A Deeper View of Intuition | HeartMath Institute.   
https://www.heartmath.org/articles-of-the-heart/a-deeper-view-of-intuition/

I went out for a nice long walk this afternoon in anticipation of the doctor’s call. It was windy but strangely warm. I loved the feel of the wind, I walked for ages and got lost in the moment, just enjoying the joy of being outside. My phone rang , it was my oncologist

The news ❤️

She took me by surprise as she had called earlier than the appointed time. She said my scans had all revealed positive results, she seemed genuinely and deeply happy for me. We talked in more depth, the tumour in my lymph node and hip had both significantly reduced one by half from 24 mm to 12mm. The bone disease was also healthier than it was before, this is supposed to be incurable. I’ve got two fractures in my back both caused by tumours and both have shrunk. There was no sign of the cancer spreading any more than it had already done. My PSA had dropped again this time measuring 0.16.

That was a very pleasant chat indeed, I felt like I was floating rather than walking on solid ground. My head and heart were just overwhelmed with a feeling of goodness. I kept saying we are beating this to myself.The universe is most definitely listening to me now. It’s hard to explain the relief, as I said earlier I was convinced that it was going to be good news , but not as good as it was. To hear the cancer shrinking was like a waterfall of crystal clear words flowing into my mind. I’m not stupid I know there is a long way to go, but this is a great platform to build on. I’ve been saying all along I don’t just want to control it I want it gone and a complete remission. I know it’s possible, anything is possible if you believe it enough.♥️

Take care

Love Woody ❤️