Seem to be having a wonderful Christmas time🎄

Dressing gown on and after my usual tentative walk down the 3 flights of stairs I realised there was no pain in my right leg nor numbness, this was great, it had been a long while since both of my legs felt normal. The girls were as usual on a Christmas day morning excited, its a kind of magic whether they still believe or not it doesn’t matter it’s still magical to us.

Opening presents, watching faces burst into smiles, look what I’ve got daddy. Mummy controlling the precedings with frequent noises such ” oh I wonder what this is” and “this looks interesting I wonder what it could be as she passed each present to the girls with just pure love.❤️ I’m sitting back watching from a chair, I’m in a world of love right now, I don’t think I’ve really noticed the expressions on their faces in past Christmases, well not to this depth, I’ve always had one eye on what else is going on or thinking about something else, probably work related, it’s a shame. 😓

I think back to my own choldhood, I often find it really difficult to recall my childhood, it’s as if large parts of it are missing from my memory. Not today I’m suddenly transported back half a century ago and into our front room of an old house back in my early days, it doesn’t last long but it’s nice to have visited it.🎁

Christmas dinner cooked by my wife was wonderful, I was trying to keep to my plant based diet so avoided the meat, I confess I had a cheeky slice of turkey, well it won’t kill me, will it. 😂

Christmas cracker hats on full of Christmas pud we were a contented family, the kids dissapeared straight after to play with their new gifts and I went for a walk around the estate. 🚶

It was so quiet, it was almost dark, and the air felt festively cold, shame on the snow or even a visit from Jack frost would have been lovely. I did 3 laps of the estate, the only company was my headphones I listened to a fascinating guy talking about curing cancer through nutrition. I’ve ordered his book, it was £18 on Amazon but I managed to hunt it down on eBay for less than a fiver, it wasn’t made electronically which is a shame.📕

From January 1st I’m making quite a few New Years resolutions, all of them to do with my battle against cancer.🙏

I’m reading so much into cancer now, it’s fine because I’m not afraid of it anymore, I’m starting to feel I’ve got the upper hand and I’m learning exactly what I need to do to be one of those miracles that happen.🙏

I’m going to attack my cancer in a number of ways, in fact attack it is the wrong word because I’ve decided I’m going to make friends with it once again, I’m going to treat it as part of me, when the time comes it will leave on mutual terms of that I am now sure. You see the plan I’m going to do is going to leave it no choice, and when we split up it will be on good terms, it will know that it can’t come back again.♥️

I’m going to change my diet in a drastic way, no more caffeine, from next year strictly no more caffeine, I will still drink tea or coffee but decaff.☕

I’m going to follow a vegen diet, that is none of my food will come from a living animal. Lots of veg fruit nuts legumes and seeds. I’m going to continue making shakes from vegetables and fruit. I figure if I want to heal myself I have to stop the diet of caffeine and crap food I’ve lived on for many years. A body is healed from within, you wouldn’t expect a Ferrari to perform by filling it with water instead of petrol 🌽🍅🍆🥒🥔🥕

You all know how I feel about my walking, it’s my power, kryptonite, my gift from the universe, every walk is a step closer to healing, every step is a step closer to Christmas village in Lapland on my virtual walk. 🚶🚶

It’s the same in the real world, it’s not about the goal, it’s about the journey, the steps one at a time to get there. Just like my challenge with beating cancer it’s one day at a time, I truly believe that everything I do good or bad makes a difference.♥️

I know this journey will not always be in a forward direction, some of it I will stall for a bit and then just pick up and push forward again.🚶🚶🚶

My pain in my right leg has almost totally gone, im not entirely sure how that has happened but it has and I’m so thankful, it means I can now take more steps forward now, that is untill the next hurdle I have to climb over.♥️

I’m proud to be a part of this journey and nothing is going to stop me walking in January 

I’m so grateful already to those that have donated to this fantastic cause to raise money to research prostate cancer.

I’m feeling confident in beating the biggest challenge of my life, I don’t know why I just know that I’m going to beat it.

That’s a massive statement from someone with advanced agressive cancer, well yes it is, but do you want to bet against me on beating it. I wouldnt.🥊

I’ve got the universe with me now, I’ve got pure love from people and I’ve got belief and I’m so grateful to feel that way.🙏

I’m off to bed now , I’m going to tell myself every night and every day, now I believe so strongly. 🙏

I will beat this cancer 

I will beat this cancer 

I will beat this cancer 

Every day in every way I’m getting better and better 🙏

Every day in every way in feeling stronger and stronger🙏

Every day in every way I’m beating my cancer 🙏

My conscious mind gives the order to my subconscious mind this is a powerful force, don’t mess with the subconscious it always does what you tell it to do. ❤️🙏