Getting away from cancer for a few hours.

I have a feeling of excitement and anticipation as I’m driving carefully. it’s the first time I’ve left the house and the estate with a real purpose except for a doctor or hospital appointment. It’s a feeling of freedom, I won’t lie the last week has been a real struggle, but then nobody said it would be easy according to Cold Plays fabulous song. 🎤🎶

In truth I feel I’ve been in isolation for many weeks now and this is my chance of freedom. It may seem unfair to describe the last few weeks as isolation I like the social interaction in my life, I’ve always been that type of person, but there is only so many things you can do stuck at home with a tiny garden in a quarry of an estate. Of course that’s not to say I’m not grateful especially for the daily sits in the garden with my different cups of tea and admiring the different types of weather.☀️

And of course I’ve been eternally grateful for the calls and visits and love I’ve received from many, I’m so lucky, I don’t know how anyone could face this on their own, my heart truly goes out to them because their must be many ❤️❤️

Today is cold, it’s got a real feel of winter and I’ve made sure I’m wrapped up for it, you’ve guessed it the almost new bright blue warm jacket ☺️

I arrive at the lakes it’s just a short 10 minute journey from my house and I begin the short walk to the lake, I’m going to attempt the walk all the way around the first lake if my body can take it, I’m feeling confident and anyway I’m sure the breathtaking sights will take my mind off my bodies reaction, I feel it’s something I need to do.🚶‍♀️

The cold air hits me it’s nice, it’s refreshing and awakens every single one of my senses, its like life has just blown through me and I’m feeling it in a beautiful way , it’s good to be alive right now. ♥️

I catch a silvery glimpse off the lakes surface through the tree lined route, I always like walking down the path through the tree tunnel as it makes its way towards the first of the lakes, this is the one I plan to be walking around today. It’s quiet just a few isolated souls braving the chill exercising small dogs. It’s overcast and grey and very still, the lake is flat and calm and the same colour as the sky above it, so much so that it  almost seems it’s blended into one.

 it’s stunning, it’s been a while , a thought crosses my mind that I’ve never been here on my own as I drink in the sights, it doesn’t dissapoint, last time I was here the trees were still fully clothed now they are almost bare and naked round the lake, some of them have half a coat of golden and brown leaves, the other half of the trees have retired for winter. 

Swans geese and ducks are all huddled into one corner as if they are keeping each other warm, they are strangely silent, usually they make a lot of noise, but I suppose there are so few people around and the chicks are all grown up now so don’t need the parents shouting warnings at us.

The first part of the walk is across the field that runs parallel to the lake, there are the lovely heartwarming tweets of the various songbirds.🐦 I spot a robin sitting on a branch, his bright red breast is all puffed up protecting him I expect from the cold. He looks directly at me in I would interpret as a wise and intelligent way. It’s like hes seen me before, that’s a strange feeling, perhaps we are linked through the universe in some way. He doesn’t fly off just calmly follows me with his brown eyes as I bid him goodbye and continue my walk.🐦

I come across a man made jetty there are a pair of swans and a few geese hanging out here. They ignore me as I walk past. The next bit takes me across a little tributary that runs from the lake and is under a small old wooden slatted bridge , I always stop here, my mind goes back to when I used to play the good old game of Poo sticks , of course I never won the girls always picked the faster sticks 😃 I love the way the little stream winds itself into the overgrown bank and then dissapeared complely. I’ve always looked but I’ve never seen any fish, I once saw a little vole frantically swimming across the stream to safety, a few ducks and some rats.

Sadly my body doesn’t want me to walk  around the lake, that’s ok by me, I’m just happy and grateful just having the opportunity of being here. 🙏

There is just something about water that attracts me to it, I just love being in sight of it, listening to it but strangely not that great about being in it, I’ve never been confident in water. 🏊‍♀️

Today is a moment in life that I will never forget, it seems so strange to say that afterall it’s only a visit to a lake, but to me it means so much more, it’s like a kind of epiphany if that’s the right word. What I do understand is I need to now get out and do more stuff like this whilst I have got the opportunity and time. My latest scan results were not good, but that doesn’t matter because I can turn that around by doing stuff like this, I need to make the most of life even if it is doing stuff that we all just take for granted or just don’t place a higher enough value in it.❤️🙏

I have decided to create a new project and that is a YouTube channel all about calming an anxious mind and I think we’ll I can’t walk around the lake so let’s sit down and do a bit of a video about calming an anxious mind. I feel the channel will be an honest straight forward way of reaching out to people about the benefits of positivity kindness and gratitude, we’ll see, if it’s meant to be then it’s meant to be.🙏 I’m hoping it gives me another purpose spreading some peace and mindfulness to.people and I think I’ve got the perfect reason and purpose to do it.❤️🙏

Keep positive keep kind and be grateful for every little thing you have in your life. ❤️