Mindfulness, cats and I miss my job.
Not really sure what to write , perhaps because it’s early evening. Been to the doctor’s again today this time because my blood pressure has been a concern, he was happy that the tablets have brought it back down to nearer normal levels, whilst I was there he gave me the flu jab too so it was a double whammy and it didn’t hurt 💉10/10 well played doctor.
My right leg and hip have been a bit unfreindly today despite the meds I could really feel the pain, I tried to walk around a bit but didn’t make it any better. I’m trying to meditate the pain away, it works to some extent but now I’m paying attention to it it’s kicking off again. So I’m going to stop writing about it now and ignore it in the hope that it goes away.
Nearly finished editing my book I’m writing, I could of paid someone on Fiverr to do it for about £30 but its my first book and I’m hoping to do everything myself.
Sat outside this afternoon, it was really cold, it was one of those days where I just could not get warm except for the hot flushes from the hormone treatment, funny enough I’m having one right now, my face feels exactly like I’ve been too long in the sun all day. It’s still strange how these hot flushes just come and go. I’m feeling hot pretty much all over right now, and then it just cools down suddenly and I’m left feeling a bit chilly.❄️🔥🌶️ Ha notice the clever use of a chilli emoji 😄
Green tea has become the favourite in the which is the best type of tea competition. I actually like it with about half a spoon if sugar, apparently it’s good for you. Hopefully it can cure cancer and I’ll be a fan for life.😄
Done the walk tonight wil Ella at my side, bless her I love our night walks, and even better is the fact that these lovely evening walks are raising money to a very worthwhile cause, so far I’ve managed with your help to raise over £700 pounds for the Samaritans.
I was thinking just how many people I now know or at least know of who have taken their lives in the last year or so. It’s terrible, please don’t ever think that you can’t go on, I’ve nearly been there myself but luckily enough I was never brave enough to go through with it. Nobody should feel like there is no light at the end of the tunnel, there always is. Keep believing. One of the bravest things to do is to ask for help, just ask, speak to someone , the Samaritans are always there 24 hours a day
I’ve joined several Facebook groups about cancer and cancer survivors, it’s incredible how many people troll these groups and pray on people who are suffering for financial gain. I never realised that people would scam people who are desperate for help, it’s unbelievable. I like to think the universe has a special plan for those people sometime in the future.🙏
I’m looking into different types of diets now to help in my fight against cancer. Seems to me that anything that comes from the ground or comes from trees is a good base to start working with.
Look who’s curled up next to me and snoring like crazy, this is Tilley she has never sat next to me in the couch before this is strange. I wonder if she knows I’m Ill .
night night Tilley.😽🐾
Well can’t take a picture of Tilley with out taken one of Daisy, she will get all jealous and then there will be trouble.
And here’s Daisy, she’s a beauty and she knows it, in fact just as I took this pic just now she winked it me ☺️ she’s always winking at people for attention.
Well it’s time for me to try and sleep
If I don’t wake up I’ll see you tomorrow sometime, if I wake up at silly o’clock then I’ll be back
I’m back and yes youve guessed it, silly o’clock time. I’ve been thinking, unusual for me I know😄 today I’m going to be doing some research into diets that may help my cancer, can’t be a bad idea dont you think , perhaps if anyone reading this canleave me some ideas in the comments that could be good too.
I got a bit upset with my cancer yesterday I told it to fuck off (sorry mum for the potty mouth) it was hurting in the base of my spine so I told it off, I’ve been speaking kindly to it for 2 months now and now Ive decided to be a bit more sterner, well it worked the pain dissapeared shortly after. 💪👌
Yesterday Was one of those days where for the first time I felt really bored with it all, I’m on my own all day and there is only so much internet searching you can do. To be honest I really miss my job. In case you don’t know I’m an ambulance driving instructor, I miss helping my students, I miss travelling to wonderful places and I miss the thrill of training on blue lights , I hope I can go back to it soon, it’s the best job I’ve ever done. 💙💚
Every time I hear an ambulance siren it takes me straight back to being in an ambulance. I’m hoping those days are not over😢
one of my memories of my students that passed their course at the East of England NHS trust 💙💚
Right time to get positive head back on and make a more positive day of it today.
I think I’m going to take a walk down to the Morrisons garage down the road for a bit if exercise and maybe pick up a cheeky little Costa coffee large cappuccino to spoil my self , then sit in the garden and mindfully drink it with out a care in the world. 🚶♂️🚶☕
It’s funny how tastes change , for years I used to dislike Costa coffee. Then one day my taste buds just said that’s nice, and that was that. They don’t do a flat white in the local garage but a cappuccino is definitely 2nd best , I hope they don’t run out of chocolate sprinkles, you’ve just got to have chocky sprinkles on your cappuccino, but never on your flat white. ⛔
It’s like things like a Costa cappuccino are now little treats and it makes them taste so much better if you think of them that way . I drink my coffee and my tea mindfully , I notice every sip and take my time, I drink it with all my senses. Mindfull drinking is great, I never used to have the time before. Try drinking your next cup of coffee really slowly smell it , take little sips and really notice the flavour, I guarentee it will be the best cup ever if you really put your full attention into.it and nothing else, no mobile phone, no nothing, just you and your coffee and no sense of time
Keith, an inspiration as ever, thinking of you and will be “blue lighting “ in Cambridge tomorrow with you in my thoughts 🚒👏🏻
'I guarentee it will be the best cup ever if you really put your full attention into it and nothing else' – unless it isn't! But it is a good way of distinguishing a good coffee from a poor one. Or maybe it's just one I like from one I don't. Then I have to try to work out why. This mindfulness can be a rabbit hole!
I LOVE this!