Acceptance of cancer

Part two of my plan to some how create the right conditions in my body for my cancer to go away. I’m not stupid I know it’s a long shot but in my previous post on spontaneous remissions I talked about belief, if I don’t have belief I may as well just not bother and give up. But I do have belief and that is what encourages me and inspires me to continue down this path to who knows where. Many of the spontaneous remissions had a core of very similar things in which they did to somehow find a way to beat their cancer. Last blog I spoke about the power of belief and how if you believe in something it will stand more chance of working. This post, I’m going to be talking about the next of the common factors amongst survivors of cancer and that is acceptance of the cancer. I got this information from a lot of different sources by searching the internet and reading books and watching YouTube videos, once you start seeing a common link you sit up and take notice. I doubt all I’ve read and researched is totally true, but each claim has small grains of similarity that start to make me question things I wouldn’t have done before. I’ve believed for a while there are no such things as just accidents, things are meant to happen for a reason. Has the power of the universe had a hand in all of this, has it guided me to places on the internet that I may have over looked. Who knows, I just know that I’ve read and discovered and started to experience stuff that just can’t be a coincidence. I’m just going to travel wherever I’m guided so this adventure is not over, hop on board and enjoy the ride and let’s see what we can find that could help change so much.

We hear a lot of things in articals about fighting hating and battling cancer, these words all produce negative emotions in our bodies and one of the factors that stands out in spontaneous remissions is the fact that that they all accepted the cancer as being a part of them, they didn’t go to war with it instead they got to know it on a different level. That’s my next plan to not fight this thing that has taken up residency inside me but instead to communicate and understand it and if necessary learn any lessons it wants to teach me. I’m convinced that my cancer has formed in me because of emotional issues from the past that I also need to make peace with but that’s another blog post, the thing I’m interested in now is seeing what happens when I form a relationship with my cancer. I feel I should give it a name but at the moment it feels too inappropriate. I guess it makes sense that hating it is really hating myself and I’ve already done too much of that already in my life and that time is now over. Hating something that is a part of me seems foolish, if I and you want the best outcome come then some how I’ve got to convince my cancer to leave with some kind of mutual respect. It’s a living thing doing what it can to survive, when I look deeply into prostate cancer I have to take my hat off to it and recognise what an ingenious bugger it really is. I know the drugs I’m on will for some reason stop being cancer resistant and it will return with a vengeance at some time in the future, it could be months or years know one knows, but what if we are by that stage on good terms with each other, would it be in its best interest to kill me off thus killing itself at the same time like a bee when under attack will sacrifice itself by killing what ever is attacking it and killing itself in the process, perhaps cancer only does that because we constantly attack it and hate it, what if there is another way of thinking about this, is this possibly another piece of the jigsaw to create a spontaneous remission. It certainly appears that accepting and not hating was another common factor on the remissions studied in various researches, they say there has not been many SPs most doctors seem prepared as far as I can see in research I’ve done to put these SPs as flukes of nature and just sweep them up and throw them away instead of using them as opportunities to progress and learn more about cancer. I suppose it’s embarrassing for the doctor who has told a patient I’m sorry but there is now no chance of survival and that very same patient walks back in cancer free, what can they say? I’m not knocking doctor’s because they do an amazing job, but no one is perfect and surely these are learning opportunities and not just things that are put away as being unexplainable, if it happened to just a few then maybe so but we are talking thousands so when does a fluke stop becoming just a fluke?

So going from here I’m going to go back to having conversations with my cancer, I went through a stage of doing that before. I’m going to learn to live with it and learn from it. I’m going to refrain from fighting and hating it, could I learn to love it, perhaps if I learn to love myself a bit better then maybe that would be very possible. I can understand why many reading this would completly hate the fact that loving their cancer could be even possible afterall it takes so much from us. I don’t know if I can do that either but I can stop my feelings of anger hatred and anything negative towards it. Negative thoughts and emotions are most probably what caused theses cells in my body to go bad on me in the first place so I’m going to have to dig deep on this one to look for answers on negative emotions from the past and accept them and change them.

I’ve never liked me

It’s a strange thing to write that I’ve never liked me, I’ve never accepted me as I am. I know a lot of people who have known me think I’m a nice person but that still doesn’t change how I’ve often felt about myself, particularly in my teens to my late 40s that’s a long time to spend not liking yourself, I wonder how many of you reading this have love for yourself, do you accept yourself as who you are? This can be in many ways, I’ve always hated my body and my looks, I’ve always felt ugly. It’s hard to say this but at the same time it lifts huge weights off my shoulders that had been dragging me down for years. Its strange but the lifestyle I’ve lead shows a person who could be anything but that person I felt like inside. This is because all this self hate happened on the inside for years the outside everything was rosy but the inside was a maestrom of thoughts of imperfection and negative anger of what I am. I didn’t know it at the time but I’m guessing I was providing a perfect home for my cancer cells that were waiting to be switched on. We are born with these cells most of us have them and it just depends when they decide to activate and switch on and introduce themselves in our lives in such a devastating way. I know that many people who have cancer read this blog now, ask yourself if you have gone through lots of negative emotion in your life, I mean not just things that have happened to you but suppressed negative emotions that have been there for a long time, maybe about yourself. Negative emotions affect our cells in a big way, our cells become the opposite of at ease with us and this is where we get the word disease. Cancer is looking for dis-ease and that allows it to grow. Stress and negativity are the main reasons why our bodies become ill, take these away and is is possible we start to change our poor health, I believe so.

So now I’m on a new adventure that will take me down a new path of discovery. As I finish writing this blog I’m going to start to find ways of acceptance. I’m going to learn to embrace my cancer like never before, every time it says hello I’m going to say hello to it back. It’s going to stick around for a long while and then one day it will be no more. That day will come when I’ve made peace with myself which Ive been doing for a long while. My belief is strong that these steps are the way to get a lottery ticket to the biggest prize of all, a complete remission from my cancer, the next blog will be about how to turn negative emotions away and bring in positive emotions, to open the door to a new possibility. I’m no doctor but I’m getting a feeling that I might be able to help people in so many ways once I’ve helped myself. I no longer consider any other option and if I fail no one can ever accuse me of not giving this my best shot in way that I can

Untill then keep believing and start accepting.

Love Woody ❤️