So much to be grateful for

How does one describe how lucky they feel and how grateful they are to be given a 2nd chance to get back into doing the job that they love when all seemed nearly lost a few months ago. Even though I’m living with my cancer I have plenty to be appreciative about.

I’ve been back to work for a few days now I’ve got 3 great students and in case you’ve never read my blogs before I’m an ambulance driving instructor who is truly blessed with finding a job role in life which isn’t a job it’s an honour and Im privelidged to be a part of this amazing role of training the incredible people that drive our ambulances and save lives every day.❤️

My own perspective of the job has changed since I became a patient and was taken to and from my radiation treatment in different hospitals. I now know and understand how it feels from the patients perspective and I have already noticed how my training methods have now become much more patient focused.

I’m incredibly grateful to my boss for supporting me for the past 5 months never once wavering in his belief in me returning back to the ambulance teaching role. How can one measure gratitude, right now my gratitude reservoirs are overwhelmed, in danger of flooding. I just can’t thank him enough. The feeling I get when I’m back out on the road is just incredible, I’m pinching myself that my cancer and the universe and the wonderful treatment from the NHS has allowed me to return to work.

I know the experience of living with my cancer has changed me in many ways and mostly in good ways. I refuse to get upset about anything, I just don’t know how much time I have on this beautiful planet with its beautiful people. One thing for sure is I won’t let anything spoil that time, I won’t engage in petty disagreements or get angry at any one, I will seek out positivity where there is negativity, if you look hard enough you will find positivity in everything, no matter how small that chink of light is it glows brightly when you look hard enough. My purpose now is to keep on delivering training to as many people as possible and share my experiences and help others to overcome their fears and anxieties and help people to see that we are all capable of achieving our dreams no matter what. If you want something then go and get it, there are no barriers just the ones you put up in your mind. The world is out there, love it and embrace it and it will love you and embrace you back. You can’t fail if you try, you can’t be a failure in anything if you’ve given it your very best.

I’m feeling incredibly emotional as I type, I don’t even know if my finger that types is acting on its own or guided telepathically by my thoughts which are flooding out like an unstoppable waterfall of words and feelings. I know there are so many people out there that are far worse than me. My cancer has been almost kind to me, it could of been so much worse. I’ve been lucky in many ways and I’m incredibly appreciative of that. 5 months ago I was in such a mess that my spine was in a state of near collapse. A miracle occured (in my mind) where a gentle fall on my stairs at home sent me to hospital and from there set off a chain of universe inspired events, the fall put me in a lot of pain which in turn meant I had to have Scans which then revealed fractures in my back caused by metastatic cancer tumours. These tumours had been doing their worse inside of me and it took this fall to realise. I seriously doubt if I would still be alive if that fall didn’t happen the cancer would have gone too far if left undiscovered much longer at the very least my spine would have collapsed. They say things happen for a reason, the gods were definitely looking down on me and the stars alligned just at the right time when my foot missed that step.🙏

To think that was 5 months ago and now I’ve been given what seems like a 2nd chance to have another go but with a completely different perspective of this marvelous and wonderful thing called life. So much has happened since then of which I’m grateful for, I’ve discovered a new way of looking at life and I love it.

Life is out there for us all, we can change our life by just changing a single thought about it. We can change ourselves by just changing our perspective of ourselves. We can chose to change if we want to. Never be tied down by your own thoughts, they are not knots that can be undone. If you want something badly enough there is only one thing that stands in your way and that is you. You are in control of you. No one can make you feel bad only you can do that.

I’m lucky to see all this, I’m lucky to understand that our incredibly powerful thoughts can move mountains. Do I walk a marathon, only  I can say yes or no, nobody else has that power over me and over you too? Don’t have regrets because they have vanished like smoke from a bonfire of doubts and fears and are no longer a part of you. If you regret something then change it, nothing is ever too late.

I understand how lucky I am, it takes nearly losing something/everything to make you realise how lucky you are to have had it in the first place. Dont take for granted anything, be thankful for everything you have and treasure it like something prescious, gather memories and return to them like old friends for a chat when you need them most, hold them in your heart close and keep them there forever, let the bad memories fade away you don’t need to call on them.

Writing this, my heart is overwhelmed with gratitude, the single most powerful thing there is. I realise to have and feel such gratitude is a beautiful human gift. It’s a gift that has no cost involved it’s free and you just have to open up your eyes and your heart and let it in. To be given a reason to feel grateful is unmeasurable in its effect on life. I’ll finish this by just saying thank you for everything ♥️

Love Woody ❤️

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