What a day
Lots of good stuff to report today , I feel better than yesterday both in a physical and emotional sense. The grumpy me from yesterday has gone for now. My roller coaster was on a downwards trajectory yesterday, I’m happy to say the ride is back on a high again.
I woke up on a real high, I’ve got a head full of ideas, I’ve no idea where they come from, it’s like some invisible gardener visited my head and planted them and now they are growing.
It’s hard to explain my highs because they are euphoric at times, my head is in the clouds my mind is switched on, the dial is cranked up to maximum, hold tight here we go let’s enjoy the ride. It reminds me of an old fair ground saying ” ladies and gentleman hold tight the louder you scream the faster we go” and it’s true.
People suffering cancer have these massive highs and lows , I’m just grateful that most of mine are highs, allthough they are exhausting at times.💤
I get up, my head saying you’ve got work to do Woody . I say a heartfelt thanks to each and every tablet, it’s hard to think that these tiny little man made things are giving me so much help. An extra special thanks to my super pill the Zomorph, yes it gets the honour of having a “the” in front of it, like it’s reached some sort of legendary status. The zomorph. 💊
This morning laptop open, i’ve done a lot of research into the body healing itself and found out some remarkable stuff.
stuff like a remarkable story about a man who was given a few months to live because of cancerous tumours on his head. He asked the doctor if he could help him to see out Christmas as it was his grandsons first one. He indeed did see out Christmas, he went back to the doctor and said would it be possible to live to see his grandsons first birthday, again he achieved that. Well that was 25 years ago and he is still very much alive and kicking, his secret is to live one day at a time but have a purpose to achieve something. His doctor’s can’t explain how he’s still alive and so accept there are forces operating in this world that just can’t be explained.
Well there are plenty of other stories just like his one, the doctor’s can’t
explain why, but something is keeping people alive, call it willpower, the force or what ever, you have to believe that what’s possible for one person has to be possible for others it just has to.🙏♥️
Forgiveness is a powerful force, I’ve said for a longtime that carrying the burden of grudges around with you is akin to beating your own health up. People spend years carrying grudges and the only time you recover is when you let go of that grudge.
If you are reading this and you are carrying a grudge let it go. Your life will be so much better. Forgiving someone is just letting go of them that’s all. Cancers thrive on grudges I can’t think of any grudge I’ve held, I’ve always been a let it go type of human.
My grudges are short lived. I’ve read miracles happen when grudges are let go. I watched a couple of TED talks about the body healing itself I’m staring to believe more strongly again In the power of myself.
By the way if your ever lost for something to do and want to just gain a bit of wisdom then search ted talks on Google, these short presentations are fascinating to watch, you can find a Ted talk on almost any subject.
2am
The silence is deafening, the room is so quiet I can once again hear my thoughts and they are good ones , my thoughts, again are taking over and I’m letting my fingers type what they want, I almost feel that I could be blind folded and still type reasonable well.🤔 
Today has been good, my sleeplessness is a combination of excited thoughts and discoveries from today 😄🤔
I completed my Samaritans walk today, I made up for yesterday by walking over 3km. What was extra special about my walk today was it was in the company.of an old friend (who I know will be reading this, Ed your not old😄)
We walked from my house to the Medway , stopped at Macdonald’s for a lovely well earned cup of coffee then walked back again, the total was 3.27 km according to my app.🚶♂️🚶
The river was beautifull as always and very still almost like a glass surface of a mirror, there was no breeze the air was still and a light drizzle was falling. 🌊
We sat on a seat and drank our coffee and just chatted and admired the river and talked about stuff.
Thank you Ed ♥️
This evening I watched Jumanji two, with my youngest and my wife . I’ve seen this film a number of times but I love every second of it.
I went to bed early feeling tired and happy and then woke up and this is now. 🕐
I almost forgot to tell you I had an email back from my doctor which confirmed the drug I’m going on will help the cancer in my back as well as my prostate I may have to have further radiation treatment known more fondly by me as zapping, it also confirmed that I won’t be going down the chemo therapy route.⚡⚡
Im starting to like this time of night, my thoughts are slowly winding down now , like the river was today, I’m feeling wide awake but i also know that sleep is on its way again, once I’ve emptied these thoughts out.🤔
I’m feeling good, tomorrow is another day, I’ve got a telephone consultation with a doctor from kings college tomorrow afternoon, apparently he is one of the top prostate cancer doctor’s in the medical world, I feel grateful and privileged that he is going to chat with me tomorrow. I guess I’ll let you know how that goes tomorrow.📖
I’m in love with the world again, today has been a good day ♥️
